The daily mess

The dairy was not filled in for a few days, then all on one page
 two days ago

It had looked like it would be a nice day, the idea got ruined when i found a kindred in the pit with two shadows. The shadows spoke of thing they disliked and the offer the kindred had made to them, i was not amused. It took me a bit that day to keep my calm, to keep civil while my mind kept screaming,' kill them kill them kill her kill him kill them all ', but that day i kept calm.  Made a mental note on murdering the kindred who offered on a later date.

one day ago

Decided to make a little walk to church, to see the happy faces of the rights as they just 'addore' me.
Noticed a small fight between esso and pilgrim, the book she was holding seemed to hold much power, i should look into that. then pilgrim fought lindsay and it came to a draw...seeing as they knocked eachother out , girl fights sure got lethal since i was young...then again that was over 2000 years ago. Talked a bit to righteous and taunted them with telling someone was gone make a puppet out of one of them. Also saw griffith back, a ex righteous from the old days, he was quite amusing as ever and still one of few i respected.

Not much happening today , made me think of the past, about the one i lost. It is ironic, one who was a flirt had fallen for someone in the past,but she died due to me. The only one so far who touched me deep, deionarra.

( a small gem is attached to the page, upon touching you see a story in your mind told from a third person view)

deionarra was one of the aasimar, beings who where half human and half of devine blood.
But other then her carefree sweet nature and her sight beyond the limits of time and space she was human in every sense of the word .
Deionarra's father was a lawyer and was married to the wife that his mother chose for him for political reasons.
This didnt stop him to fall in love with another girl who he encountered on a bussiness trip, and like with most loves a child was born.
He divorced his wife and wanted that his new love and child would live with him.
But his bussiness was firmly in the hands of his mother and she forbid her son to let them live with him.
Meanwhile deionarra grew up at her mothers home who turned out to be a deity.
Her life was as carefree as she was herself and she became a friendly lively girl over time.
Her grandmother was becoming known to the fact that there would be no one to inherit the law-firm if nothing was done.
But she still hated deionarrra's mother for stealing the heart of her son and making him leave the wife she chose for him.
And she devised a plan, deionarra could live with her father but then she had to say goodbye forever to her mother.
Normally you can not treaten a deity but deionarra's mother was dependant of people believing in her, if none believe in deity's , they cease to excist.
So deionarra said goodbye to her mother in return for her grandmother to build a temple for deionarra's mother.
Deionarra was smart for her age, if this was because of her mother or because of her strong spirit is not known, and she got law-school teach to her by her father.
She was not welcome on any school as her sweet nature made her to tell the truth at all times.
Combinated with her 'gift' this caused situations like as she telling her classmates when their parents or themselfs would die.
At the age of nineteen she was a fine lady,gradutated in a law degree, loved by all around her and a pleasure in being with.
She was shopping one day when she noticed a man on the market who was talking to some girls for directions, the girls seemed to devour every word he spoke and they seemed more then willing to help the man.
Even deionarra had to admit there was something about him she couldnt lay her finger on but he had something that made a impresion hard to forget.
Imagine her amazement when she came home from shopping and found the man in her father's working room.
Her father told her he was a new client who needed some legal guidance and directions as her father's work had taken him far and wide and he became quite the traveller
The man stood up to greet deionarra and introduced himself as drake, she bowed slight to greet him as he took her hand and kissed it soft while his eyes never left her gaze at him.
What neither dieonarra or her father knew was that drake never needed the directions or counseling, he only needed her as she was known with laws and daughter to a high power.
From that day on where-ever deionarra went she found drake being there also, she went shopping and he was there seeking people to travel with him, she went to her mother's temple and he was there praying .
Deionarra grew close to drake and fell in love with him, wanting to travel with him to where-ever he would go.
Drake warned her that it would not be trip for fragile girls but his words were double-edged, for every word he said to stop her , there were two to make her even more wanting to come with him.
And so she came to join drake on his travel, foolish as she was for she knew what waited her, as she had seen what laid ahead and still blindly followed drake in her love for him.
And then deionarra came to the place she had seen in her dreams,but she could not speak of what would happen as she feared drake might leave her for trying to stopping him.
He was friendly aslong as you came not against him, she seen his dark side but ignored what she saw as she would give her life for him if needed...and drake knew this..he even counted on it.
They entered a dark castle and came to face its ruler....Ravel,greatest of the gray hags...drake came to the hag to learn of power and might and asked to the hag for this.
The hag mighty as she was fell as any other for drake's decieving..she said to teach him but for a price..never to leave the castle ever again..deionarra ended up a servant girl while drake if wasnt studying was to stay at Ravel's side as a lover...this hurt her to see this but every night drake came to her room and told it was just an act..he only loved her...and she believed him.
Deionarra did cleaning and cooking till the day drake had learned all he could and he came to her saying they would escape in the night...but Ravel was a cautious and had known her 'lover ' would flee if he could learn no more.
Deionarra had the keys to the doors as she had to shop for food at times and they ran through the dark corridors towards the door ..where Ravel was waiting, her eyes blood red and a insane grin on her lips.
Ravel forbid drake to leave and in her insanity hurled a fireball at drake at her full strenght...deionarra had seen what would happen..drake would die and his spirit would walk the death lands forever.
She jumped infront of the fireball ,not seeing the grin that appeared on drake's face when she did this..drake took this opportunity to counter with what he learned and stunned the hag so he could escape
When drake escaped he took deionarra with him, she said him to leave her behind and escape before Ravel got free from her state but he spoke his words again saying he would escape with her or die with her.
And so was deionarra caried away in drake's arms towards freedom...but drake was simply not done with her yet...Deionarra felt she would not live long anymore and drake shed tears for her as he screamed for her to live.
Deionarra took drake close to her and said she would wait for him in the lands of the death and then her heart stopped , leaving drake with her lifeless shell..Drake burried deionarra and grinned as he succeeded in his plan..he still lived and now he had some one on the other side to aid him in any way she could..

( the story fades and the gem goes silent)

Atleast it should have been like that, after a while i noticed i kept calling to her followed by realising she was gone. Each day i started to miss her more,i cursed myself remembering what i had done, getting the only one i cared for to die. Since then i dont get involved to deep in relations, i am  old  and seen to many die while i keep alive. Not that i matters, by tommorow i think about other things untill the day i have nothing to do again..crying for a lost one.